11ea202c No.3673102
>>3673098That's Steam's modis operandi. He drunkposts then sometimes deletes them when he sobers up.
20c28fa6 No.3673114
>>3673110" irrelevant"
Uh huh. It sure didn't look irrelevant. It looked like detailed account of absolutely everything you've spent the week doing.
ae4fda61 No.3673130
>>3673114like I said, irrelevant details.
The only thing that really mattered with my giant rant was why I wanted to work one learning camp in particular, reading and writing. I had a hard time getting started with reading and language in general growing up, and I went to one of those camps. I feel that even beyond getting that juicy scholarship, I kinda want to give back and help some poor kids who are falling between the cracks of poor public education.
0e063a83 No.3673149
>>3673102> That's Steam's modis operandi. He drunkposts then sometimes deletes them when he sobers upOn a tangential note, the "Steam should be banned" thread has been deleted. Someone must have tried Steam's old deletion password. At least that proves Steam himself created that thread.
ae4fda61 No.3673150
>>3673135its a cyclic system. The parents may not know how, or want to help the child learn how to read and write or even speak. The average poor child is exposed to a far narrower spectrum of language than more entitled children. Then the parents pass the responsibility onto the education system, which usually does not pick up the slack, and have CPS try to educate the parents on how to deal with teaching their kids that stuff, and then the cycle ususally continues.
Its a sad affair, but government funded summer learning camps do help occasionally.
>>3673137I'm not a child psychologist, or a child anything. I'm an electrical engineer in school to be a drug addiction psychologist/social worker. Regardless, my classes do trespass into the realm of developmental psychology and and apparently its a social worker's ethical responsibility to keep expanding their education and awareness.
Single parent households are a problem, especially if the single parent doesn't have a job that can support them, provide child care while they're away, and provide the funds to actually feed their kids 3 meals a day. A lot of kids are left stranded since our current education system is based on the idea that you have two care givers, a stable home life, and a youth's only concern is going to school and doing homework. Considering that more than 50% of whites don't meet that standard, and even more minorities are faring fare worse, it creates a problem. Plus right now as a nation we are having trouble keeping teachers. Recent policies and the whole COVID thing has made a lot of teachers switch careers, leading to a teacher shortage, which means more students per teacher, and less focus on the individual rather than the general goal.
The common core doesn't help. I've taken several advanced mathematics courses, and I struggle to wrap my head around even how basic multiplication is done in common core. So even if parents wanted to help, they probably can't without undermining what is being taught in class.
ae4fda61 No.3673156
>>3673150that early exposure to language is important btw. Its why Asian people have difficulty with the English "r" sound, and why its woefully hard to learn an Asian language later in life when you primarily speak an English or romance language. Neuro pathways are all over the place in babies and young children, but they get culled as they age, which limits them to the language they're exposed to early on.
Its one of the reason we have the "Head Start" program for poor young children. Some of that damage can be slightly countered if you have educated adults read to them and expose them to more stimuli than they would be at home. It also helps with socialization if you have a situation like what I went through where the child is left alone for long periods and not interacted with by the parents enough.
ae4fda61 No.3673161
I was actually saved from that cycle by a now long dead tutor Mrs Santanito. She was a former one room school house teacher, incredibly intense, borderline abusive, but she pounded all the reading and writing essentials into me. My parents were poor and wouldn't read a book if you held them at gunpoint to do so, but my dad was an electrician so we could afford her rate of 30$ a month for weekend tutoring, she was retired but her husband had alzhimer's and they needed every penny they could get. Not many poor struggling kids have that boon of an opportunity.
She was one of those cruel evil teachers who you hate at the time but love later. Within 6 months she got me from being limited to the kindergarten section of the school library, to finishing Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. You can thank her for every well structured shitpost I drop.
Its actually for this reason that I don't want anything to do with working with children as a career. Its all soft fluffy kidgloves now, and imo some kids need a good cruel hand dunking them into the reality of academia to get them on the right track. Not advocating for physical violence, I'm being metaphorical. Still, kids are such a thorny patchwork mess of policies and opinions to navigate. I much prefer working with adults, and doubly prefer working with addicts.
I agree largely with the opinions on the problems of social welfare, but I have problematic views on how to deal with them.
ae4fda61 No.3673175
>>3673166who fucking knows, its more of a disaster than NCLB
ae4fda61 No.3673191
>>3673166The second anyone knows how to deal with common core, I'd love to know, because its complicated enough as a basic multiplication and division issue.
When you get into quantum mechanics, applying it becomes very butt hurt for me.
I dropped out of the science field when the common core started dropping in and I had no idea what was going on.
ae4fda61 No.3673193
>>3673191They didn't explain it to us going into advanced math, they just said that we should have learned it in high school. Which was less than helpful in 2021.
ae4fda61 No.3673194
or the last time I attended high school, in 2016.
5333ecbc No.3673232
>>3673191assimilate bacon
ae4fda61 No.3673245
also lol, this girl I asked out in college years ago ended up using me to get ot my brother, where she broke up with me and started going out with him. She turned into a totally psycho wad, and they broke up, but because me and my brother are good guys he brought her here and I used my truck to bring all her crap to a temp house under "betsy mills"
I gave her a few things I wasn't using like an air mattress, a few stored pillows, and a comforter that I abandoned years ago. She tried to hit on me and I was like "you had your chance and you picked the wrong brother. I don't like gold diggers.
She's essentially homeless now but I said if it gets bad I'll help her out, but I limited her to 100$ if she needed emergency support. My brother just went back to his studies, now I have her messaging me every few minutes.
I'm generous, but not generous enough to fall for the same think my brother did. I'm not looking at her as a dating aspect anymore, rather than something to pity.
ae4fda61 No.3673248
>>3673245luckily for her all my shit it protected against bed bed bugs, so for the next few months, besides the frost, she'll only have to worrry about fleas.
Her parents want nothing to do with her.
Oh my how the high fall.
21abcd16 No.3673299
>>3673248> luckily for her all my shit it protected against bed bed bugsAnd how did you accomplish that? Bed bugs are notoriously hard to control.
ae4fda61 No.3673300
>>3673284Why not? Im always improving the distance that I have between what I consider to be lesser and what I consider to be worthy.
Its not that I hate hate the poor, I just hate all the things that come from it. I don't like to be reminded of my own childhood.
Arguing on the front lawn, or even up and down the street showcasing the whole thing like if you left the front door I would hear it. Fathers' breaking their hands flattening them while mother's dodged and resulted in crushed bones and lost wages for a week. Drinking and screaming for an apocalypse that never happened.
I hate the poor and all the misinformation and catastrophic horrors that follow children into poverty. As batman put it, I may not be the hero people want, but I'm the hero people deserve.
ae4fda61 No.3673305
>>3673300mothers daring husbands to strike them while doing everything that would biologically cause a person to strike out just to abuse the judicial system, causing the husband to hit them or punch a wall flattening their fists to the point that they're disabled.
Children crying on baby monitors so long that other parents look for them on the streets, the youth so used to rape that it just seems like a thing that happens and they're ok with that.
Going outside trying to find the source of a baby who is crying only to find a family living in a one room motels who believes that letting a baby deal with its own needs and cry it out is appropriate. Its all criminal and I despise it, but there is only so much I can do.
I hate poverty, I hate the culture of poverty, I hate those who perpetuate poverty. I am a whirling cyclone of hatred. That wind includes holding down people with SUDs and forcing them to do what is right with a judiciary fist.
ae4fda61 No.3673311
>>3673305I have a fairly advanced theft prevention system on my house, and someone tried to break in, and we tracked them down.
I don't know what would have caused a person to try to break into a house with obvious cameras and a goddamed german shepherd roaming the halls, but someone tried.
I didn't even try to sue him, you can only milk so much blood from a rock, and argued that he should go into rehab instead of me being vindictive, he didn't even get past the window after all.
He managed to be so obscene that he was kicked out intensive outpatient care, covered by his medicaid, and went into jail instead.
I just don't understand some people.
e411704e No.3673316
>>3673110Are you drunk right now?
ae4fda61 No.3673317
>>3673313social welfare is constantly under an onslaught of attacks by bean counters, there is a certain level of hatred and snide relation that exists between people like us and entities of the government that funds us. Im slowly beginning to regrat being a Trump supporting MAGA douche.
ae4fda61 No.3673319
>>3673316I'm getting there but still coherent for an hour or two.
20c28fa6 No.3673320
>>3673318And I would count on all welfare, retirement, etc being cut in the next 30 years.
What with the massive debt.
ae4fda61 No.3673321
>>3673318Im more concerned with Social Security than welfare benefits, we're only barely securing social security as it is, the drive to let illegals pull from it is just problematic in general.
21abcd16 No.3673322
>>3673309> Are you sure you should be trying to help people when you got so much rage and bitterness inside?I'd just like to point out that psychologists have the second highest suicide rate among all professionals. It seems that people who have struggled with issues are drawn to helping others overcome similar problems.
20c28fa6 No.3673323
>>3673322I wouldn't be surprised.
People always told me that a crazy shouldn't try to help crazies become normal.
ae4fda61 No.3673325
>>3673320Social security is normally only available to those who pay into it. So its not like if you just show up at 65 you suddenly get SS benefits, disability is different than that.
I'm in support of america pushing out green cards by the barrel full, a lot of illegals fufilff a function of our economy that is required and is none the less ignored . We need illegals to harvest crops, its a fact, almost no American citizen would subject themselves to the cruelty and poor living conditions that harvesters endure.
20c28fa6 No.3673332
>>3673329I know I'm not wrong for thinking girls are a liability with the current courts and everything.
But still its sad seeing things end up this way and it may be my fault.
bfcdead4 No.3673333
>>3673300>As batman put it, I may not be the hero people want, but I'm the hero people deserve.Hero? HERO? He just said that. You seriously just said that.
BWAHAHAHAAAA Wow That's hysterical.
ae4fda61 No.3673334
>>3673333I try to be the hero, I work to accumulate dollars, grants, and subsidies that the average low income person could receive. In some cases I am a hero.
In other cases I'm the villian, it all depends on the situation, what I have to work with, and what the government wants.
I know I can be the villain or the hero depending on the situation, and the perspective. I just like to do the hero job when I can.
20c28fa6 No.3673335
>>3673334I prefer to be the villain. But just because I'm the villain doesn't mean I have to do anything bad.
It means I can do anything I want to do without what I am changing.
Plus how boring it is being the hero in your own story? Thats the same book everyone else is reading. Bah, conformists.
ae4fda61 No.3673338
>>3673335I totally get it, I'm a "hero" who doesn't do anything particularly good, I actually still consider myself a villainous evil doer.
I'm just a bad guy who happens to help the common folk.
ae4fda61 No.3673342
>>3673340please I'm a social worker, the last thing I do is nothing.
ae4fda61 No.3673343
>>3673342I pitty the number of ours that I'd spent on volunteer projects that poly would try to attack.
So many hours, so many projects that required my unique skills to complete.
4d7ce16b No.3673355
>>3673354> Any other voice in here got an idea on what would be fun tonight?Unbearable tickle torture with feathers!!!
ae4fda61 No.3673356
>>3673354I'd be ok for popcorn.>>3673354
demons only generate 1.4% profit, so if you wanted to watch a movie I wouldn't b against it.
NO ONE CAN STOP ME WHEN I FEEL THE NEED TO FEED ON POP'ED CORN.
20c28fa6 No.3673358
So steam why do you drink when the love of god should fill you up of any of your emptiness?
You are loved I'm sure for the great young man that you are. Thats trying so hard to be a better person.
20c28fa6 No.3673359
*Pat* *Pat* your a good boy.
ae4fda61 No.3673360
>>3673358I feel no thing resembling wholesomeness.
20c28fa6 No.3673368
So anyways hows your night? You love to share things. Sharing can be a useful way to find self healing.
Like taking a dirty crystal out and washing it out in the waters of public opinion.
bfcdead4 No.3673376
>>3673343>>3673342Ohhhhh so you're a social worker now? That's terrific Steam. Hope this lasts longer than your Christian phase.
Maybe it's just kind'a hard for me to take anything you say seriously because you lie so God Damn much.
I seem to remember multiple exchanges with you bragging to me about how much richer, younger, smarter, sexually experienced qand better looking than me you were and how great it was you didn't have to work anymore.
Finally got tired of not doing jack shit after retiring in your 20's I see? Now that you're a "social worker" bat man figure I also see you feel morally superior to me too.
Well Congratulations on being a better person than Aufy. I see you've set the bar real high for yourself…
I do what I can for people and try to be there for others and I guess that's good enough for me. But being a philanthropist isn't exactly my priority right now.
Maybe I don't involve myself with a great deal of charity work because I'm not riddled with a guilty conscience.
At least you have enough of one to try to do something about yours so props on ya for that.
I want to be happy for you. I really do. But given some of our past exchanges and as many fake Aufy status updates as you've posted, you might understand that this happiness may be met a measurable degree of snark and cynism.
But I do hope you find whatever it is you're looking for.
21abcd16 No.3673381
>>3673378Ok, you and Steam win. I was making an attempt to keep up with Steam tonight with drinking but after giving it my all, my posts still look almost coherent to me compared with yours and Steams. Well done you two!
bfcdead4 No.3673386
>>3673378I'd have a hard time believing that was the intent.
It always happened when I wouldn't have posted for a few days.
I mean always lurk here regardless. So if some one posts something like that I'm gonna see it eventually.
I mean I don't know how dragging someone's name through the dirt is supposed to make them a "better person".
But it sure as shit succeeded at getting my attention.
20c28fa6 No.3673387
>>3673386I don't know either. Manipulation is always such a complex thing. Its just better not too do it, I think.
And its hard to imagine you always know whats best for a person. When you can be 40+ and still not even fully figure yourself out.
Like I thought burying my dark self of my personality completely would make me a great person. But it left me not willing to defend myself, not wanting to set personal boundries, not caring about being respected. I lacked that anger to stand up for myself, violently if need be.
20c28fa6 No.3673401
>>3673387At one point I realized by trying only to be good and bury every negative part of myself I had enslaved my own self.
Fighting back = bad
Eating meat = bad
Driving a car = bad because it could accidently turn you into a killer
Owning and using a gun = bad
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Having a life I was in control of = bad
ae4fda61 No.3673408
>>3673376my minor is in social work, my major is psychology, but social work gives way more flexibility than psychology. I use terms interchangeably, because lol I can. Psychology limits you to working for corps or doing one on one counseling, social work allows you to do so many things and help way more people. It only makes sense that I'd use that minor as a plug in for more opportunities.
ae4fda61 No.3673409
>>3673376I'm also still studying Christianity, but I failed miserably at becoming a christian. I'm still reading all the shit they gave me for RCIA, its fascinating stuff, and the root of a lot of our culture. I'm just reading it for its historic value and understanding how other people see the world, rather than being a convert.
I think I'd do better in a philosophical "religion" like Buddhism or something
ae4fda61 No.3673410
>>3673401Our society punishes anyone who isn't lawful good or chaotic neutral.
For example, back in high school our building was kinda built like an upside down wedding cake over a ravine with sand poured between the floors, and stairs that went outside the building.
I was an introvert goth kid who sat with the other introvert weird kids during lunch. One day a few assholes were kicking my gangly nerd friend down into the ravine as he tried to crawl back up, and ripping up his notebooks and text books while he crawled.
I stepped in and kicked their asses… well in the beginning, it eventually ended up a stalemate between me and 3 bullies. Due to the zero tolerance policy, we all got in school suspension for 3 weeks including the guy who didn't do anything and was just being bullied. Not a big problem for the 3 guys in remidal classes, but a huge problem for me and my friend who were in advanced classes.
Sometimes I realize that playing hero in today's society is not the best course of action. I still think its better than just sitting there and letting life destroy your soul though.
80b5a7af No.3673415
>>3673409Pagan is always fun. But at the end of the day, all that matters is having a strong connection to god and being able to speak with them.
And that comes from having an open heart and self honesty, rather than from dusty books.
ae4fda61 No.3673417
or you could just die
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHbwFSqxLqgNot an option for everyone, but I was way more relaxed when I was dead than the rat race I got shoved back into upon being revived.
I don't want to dwell on that fact, thats what ends up leading mass murderers. I'm focused on occasinally forcing people to live the best lives they can, usually for the sake of their offspring.
I'm 100% ok with just offing yourself, but you limit your options when you have a kid. Even rape is a hard thing to define, unless it was literally just a guy waiting in the bushes for a lone woman to go to the bathroom alone at 1am.
I might even be technically a rapist. Me and another airman were drunk, I pointed out that I was bi and he fucked me, then I fucked him the next day he freaked out because he had drunk sex with a guy. I don't personally think thats rape, but I got kicked out regardless. It wa an administrative discharge, so it wasn't punitive or honorable, it was a neutral thing.
ae4fda61 No.3673418
>>3673417ive been arguing against that incident ever since, I've been carved apart leading to a 100% disability, exposed to neurotoxins, puffed with spores of anthrax, and shot several times.
I really hate the military.
ae4fda61 No.3673420
>>3673419thats the core story. I started freaking out because I was on a medication that didn't agree with me, and I wanted a hug. I was also on pain killers and earlier that night a friend brought me, for some reason several boxes of wine.
Wine mixed with percolate, I went out with some friends, one of my friends tried to rape some girl, and I stepped in drunkenly to stop him.
One thing lead to another, I fought all my friends and won, I'm kinda hardcore, but then got discharged for being a threat.
ae4fda61 No.3673421
>>3673420after being discharged, one guy actually thanked me, I keep everything recorded, because he almost raped some girl who wasn't a working girl, and he said I just have really bad luck and deserved better.
I do deserve better 3 weeks as an officer was not nearly enough to satisfy my urges.
ae4fda61 No.3673422
thats how long I was a lutinate, 3 weeks. I didn't do anything during that time period, but I protected my airmen back when I was lower class.
ae4fda61 No.3673425
>>3673422If I were a lesser man I'd have let the m to rot and been way better off. I chose to protect them, It wasn't anything wrong that they did. A day being hung over here, a few days having to look after your step kids, not being able to get to work because of ice.
It was entirely at the disposal of the corneal, and I sacrificed my self to save everyone else.
b4c3fbdd No.3673441
>>3673421> I do deserve better 3 weeks as an officer was not nearly enough to satisfy my urgesSo now the lie you were a captain is officially off the table. You now claim to have been a butter bar for three weeks.
All that's left is for you to admit you never made it past TSgt.
ae4fda61 No.3673480
>>3673472That may be true for some cases, but I've reread all that I've posted here and they're historically accurate.
I don't have a need to remove these stories, other than due to some writing errors, but they aren't so bad that they can't be ignored.
ae4fda61 No.3673495
>>3673480I'm dealing with this issue where a woman with 3 kids separated from her husband is entitled to 3,2000 dollars in support.
A father who is supporting the same is only eligible for 95 dollars. in support. Because he is a man. Its fucking ridiculous.
ae4fda61 No.3673572
>>3673376also I don't straight up lie.
i stretch truths and omit details, but I don't lie. Everything I say is fact, its just not always a self evident fact. My logic is somewhat of an anomaly to the uncreative.
ae4fda61 No.3673574
>>3673572also this would be the epic rap down between me and poly.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLr9JVFEWHc ae4fda61 No.3673575
>>3673574I'would love to hear a few reviews of the hatred that comes from showering in cold water and the pure hatred that comes from being bonded by people.
ae4fda61 No.3673606
shockingly the most effecive soultion to my eternal wakefulness has been the stimulat adderall. My mind is all over the place, its hard to reign in, aderall apparently made me focus just enough to pass out.
Good luck convincing anyone to prescribe aderall to an adult college student though. It might be effecive in controllinhg my scatter brain, but so many kids wan to use it that its doubtful I'll ever get a script.
ae4fda61 No.3673607
>>3673605I don't think i've ever expressed the urge to kill myself. Thats just you projecting.
I may not enjoy living, but I fully intend to live as long as I can.
22b8c537 No.3673609
>>3673607Probably, I love the idea of giving people assisted suicide. But thats not legal, so you can't do that here.
Theres no greater gift you can give a person, than to end their pain, and take them out of a world they never asked to be brought into.
Its a lot better than them jumping off a building and injuring people. Or surviving as some messed up person with half a brain gone or something.
ae4fda61 No.3673611
>>3673609Thats where our ideals shift. You want to kill people, and I want to save people.
Is such a complicated counter argument that I don't really feel like writing the whole thing up.
We can at least set the argument by agreeing that we are two sides for the same coin.
22b8c537 No.3673612
>>3673611They want to die. And if its done with the law's support then it is fine.
Reguardless of one's morality, one needs to follow the law to protect ones self.
Some people are in unrecoverable amounts of pain. That may have no end because its a physical condition or genetic disease.
ae4fda61 No.3673614
>>3673612everyone wants to die, its the most effective and easier way out of any situation.
Living takes effort, pain, and ultimately something to latch on to. I don't have any latch and I'm constantly wondering why I hold on. Like yesterday my brother expressed ho surprised he was and how happy he was to see me fling myself into the jaws of the beast, so to speak.
I have invisible handholds that I don't realize are there until I grab them. Othewrwise I'd have fallen a long time ago.
ae4fda61 No.3673632
>>3673630you're capable of good, you just need a swift kick in the right direction… Being you i would probably have to inflict some spinal damage… but….
You're not so evil that you can't ignore your dark side.
ae4fda61 No.3673635
>>3673633I'm using antiquated terms of good and evil. They don' quite fit anymore.
Like me dealing with substance abuse issues in society, I need to have a healthy layer of evil coating me to even get these assholes to trust me.
Sometimes evil can be good and it took a long time for me to figure out how my hates could be beneficial to society. Its not like I can get rid of it.
I know that deep down you want to be a good guy, harness your hate and use it for good. Draw out that good boy hiding inside you.
ae4fda61 No.3673637
>>3673634Coat yourself in evil, and plunge in to places that the good don't tread.
You have a super power that you aren't even aware of.
>>3673636you may not want to be the good guy, but sometimes the neutral guy is as good as anyone can hope for. Don't be good, just be not bad.
ae4fda61 No.3673639
>>3673638you're exaggerating, could you really see yourself drinking the blood of randos?
take a step back and try to picture your ideal self.
ae4fda61 No.3673642
>>3673640hey my goal is not making everyone a sjw, or an activist, as long as you're chill yourself my mission is accomplished.
ae4fda61 No.3673644
>>3673641me going from a trump supporting racist asshole to being slightly less racist and supporting others was not easy. It took a lot of self refllection and dealing with personal issues.
Changing yourself is hard, but worth it.
ae4fda61 No.3673645
you can't let hate eat you up all of the time. Its not great.
22b8c537 No.3673647
>>3673645Hate also comes from lying to yourself. Telling yourself you are something that you are not.
How do I really know you want to save anyone for yourself, and its not all an act trying to fill in some hole. That'll never get filled.
That your trying to be some martyr cry baby that refuses to grow up.
ae4fda61 No.3673648
>>3673646meh, take me at face value. Sometimes that's all you can do.
What does it matter if im being totally sincere if my message is true and gets through to you.
22b8c537 No.3673649
>>3673648I see people all the time who are suffering because they are "nice guys".
When they aren't nice, they are naturally mean, passive aggressive, bottled up, etc.
ae4fda61 No.3673651
>>3673647meh, the biggest lie that is going down right now is you pretending to be a badass.
Just stop and accept that under all that facade you're at leas a neutral if not good person.
ae4fda61 No.3673652
>>3673649I never said be a "nice guy" I fully advocate drenching yourself in your evil and going about doing good while not being nice at all.
ae4fda61 No.3673653
>>3673652Being a bad guy doing good guy work is admittedly lonesome, but someone has to do it.
ae4fda61 No.3673657
>>3673654again, I never said that you need to suppress your hatred. Embrace it and let what caused it fuel you.
Harness your hatred, and use it to counter your hatred. Nothing satisfies your darkness like working to prevent it from manifesting in future generations.
22b8c537 No.3673659
>>3673657"Nothing satisfies your darkness like working to prevent it from manifesting in future generations."
No, Its good people have the bad parts of themselves. It helps with survival and is part of being the complete package.
ae4fda61 No.3673667
>>3673666I'll give you one last nugget of trusth for you do digest.
If something is seeminly over your head, take a step back and do a chin up. If you can't its ok, even if you can't perceive the situation in its whole, you still have a better understanding than when you started.
You run into all your problems head on, take advice from an old man and just stand back to let the situation settle before you start throwing punches. You might learn something.
ae4fda61 No.3673671
>>3673667I say old man, but to be honest, were probably roughly the same age. Still I feel like I''ve learned ore over these years than you have.
>>3673669Sipping a coffee, drinking a few shots of vodka, reading a book. You know, normal stuff.
ae4fda61 No.3673673
>>3673672not unless you want to hear all the stories contained within the "working poor" by david shipler has to offer.
In which case I could drown you in misery, but its one of those cases where i just have to soak it all in.
22b8c537 No.3673674
Do you like this song?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ho2byp23bxQI sang it all of yesterday. I love being filled with the light of our lord.
I had a tulpa once and I used to sing it to him all the time.
22b8c537 No.3673675
>>3673673I don't think I have to soak up anything I don't want, unless its water.
But you know what the kirilins say, if it doesn't rain you'll never see rainbows.
f6ac5bc4 No.3673676
>>3673572The fuck are you even talking about?
You lie PLENTY.
The posing as me fake Aufy updates, claiming we "worked together" on project sex Demon and I just "didn't take your expert advice" in the alone-on-a-friday-night thread after offering your assistance, then straight up calling me a perverted freak when you literally own a silicone sexdoll and knew exactly what I kind of thing I was working on and would likely ask for help with before hand, spreading the rumor I "groped an old women and got kicked out of my home for it"
Oh then there was the claim you offered me some kind of small business loan?
The fuck was that about?
All of those… we're not "stretching the truth" they're flat out bold face lies.
My removing you from my shit list was entirely contingent on you being a Christian and trying to respect your religious values as assistance with building demonic bimbos isn't exactly Christian.
But now you're claiming you're not even Christian anymore? You offered your assistance knowing what I was up to and immediately retracted and now you don't even have Christianity to fall back on.
You were just being an lying asshole for no other reason than for sake of doing it.
It wouldn't have pissed me off so much if we didn't have this beef before I started construction and I was actually kinda looking forward to working with a real life engineer.
I'm glad you're doing social work and "trying to help people" ya know that's terrific Steam.
But no you are still a liar and on my shit list.
ae4fda61 No.3673677
>>3673674you're falling on humor to mask how uncomfortable you feel about yourself, its a common tactic.
You may not want to admit it, but you're as human as any of us are and prone to the same vulnerabilities.
Be a good boy and accept your weaknesses, and grow from them.
22b8c537 No.3673678
>>3673676Oh sex dolls. I have no experience with them but turd flinging money has always praised the doll house ones I believe. He says "spinning robot pussy" is better than the real thing and that it was so powerful that the first time he pulled a muscle in his ab/groan from cumming so hard.
TFM was a youtuber that would one part review sex toys. Other part be radical politics.
22b8c537 No.3673679
>>3673678Turd flinging monkey I mean. I not money.
He fell in love with his sex doll actually.
ae4fda61 No.3673681
>>3673676Oh joy, and now the clown shows up.
Do you actually have anything of value to add to the conversation, or are you being a shit head like you usually are.
DK unlike you is still worthy of being helped, unlike who who I'd have more luck punching a brick wall.
At least DK is not so far gone that he isn't open to discussion.
ae4fda61 No.3673685
lol, you even deleted an old post so you could repost your shenanigans.
ae4fda61 No.3673690
>>3673689You say one thing, but your general posting says another.
ae4fda61 No.3673691
>>3673690everything you post is drenched in self hatred and loathing. You denying that is just not true.
cd0886c7 No.3673694
>>3673681Well to be fair you made a false claim and you're being called out on it which yes does entirely constitute a positive contribution to the conversation.
Spreading lies about a person and deliberately getting thier hopes up for the sole intent of ripping on them for it is an entirely justifiable reason to be upset with someone.
I'm not sure how this isn't self evident to you.
ae4fda61 No.3673697
>>3673694You are now amongst the people I don't like. I try brah, instead of picking me apart, maybe you could have considered idk, helping my argument?
>>3673695It doesn't seem like that to me, but if you're happy with what you are, who am I to judge? I just think that you might be happier with a better version of yourself , but that is entirely speculative.
f8f0aac4 No.3673705
>>3673695>But I do like my heart Well, everybody likes rock.
cd0886c7 No.3673716
>>3673697Ha! What incentive do I have to "help your argument"?
Why would I give a single fuck that you "don't like me"?
I'm not here to be liked. I'm here because I can say whatever I please and some of the drama here is mildly amusing.
Besides when you're constantly lying, lie about lying, instead of just owning up to it, go off about how rich and smart you are while at the same time make these obvious pity party posts trying to make people feel bad for you, picking you apart is par for the course.
>>3673711 This. Exactly! He gives me free porn, makes me laugh, isn't constantly bragging or seeking pity and has some sense of humility.
Honestly he's probably better off without steams help.
ae4fda61 No.3673720
>>3673716I sometimes get so wrapped up focusing on one issue that I forget that we're a den of scum and villainy.
You have absolutely no reason or even a prognostication that would even begin to incline you to aiding my drunken attempts at "saving" people.
I at least gave DK a few things to think about, he's far more malleable than Polybius. I really don't know how to deal with that guy other than just let him do what he does. He's no fun, when he posts its like a fixture, you can do all you want around hit, but he refuses to budge on anything. Its a headache for someone like me.
cd0886c7 No.3673725
>>3673720Sohhh let me see if I understand this, you're idea of "helping" or "dealing with" him is to spread blatantly false rumors and attempting identity theft when you think he's not going to be around to see it?
Not sure how that works exactly.
22b8c537 No.3673727
>>3673720"malleable" huh, that a pretty loaded word choice.
Talking like I'm a piece of clay.
ae4fda61 No.3673732
>>3673727healthy humans are akin to clay, they are willing to be shaped and change depending on their circumstances. Its not an insult or insinuating weakness, its just expressing that you are mentally healthy.
Even if you adapted to some degree to my little "art project" if you found it disagreeable, you're you show that you could just flop right back to where you started. No harm done.
People like polybius, not so much. He's like a kilned mug made by a severely autistic child suffering from fetal alcohol syndrome and downe's.
ae4fda61 No.3673734
>>3673731
well I don't mean that you aren't riddled with negative problems, I'm not in the business of actually giving diagnostic evaluations of people's problems
I'm just saying that your mind is capable of dealing with changing circumstances, and you are capable of changing for the better if you wanted to.
Not everyone has that ability.
ae4fda61 No.3673737
>>3673733Me and poly have a solid aggressive stance against each other.
>>3673735I do that myself, its not safe or healthy. I can be a perfect student, the perfect employee, the perfect friend, the perfect soldier. Occasionally the (my name's sake) Steam will blast out and suddenly youre not dealing with
* you're dealing with Steam.
It only happens every decade or so, but when it does, its catastrophic.
You'd be better off not using that method of control for your problems.
cd0886c7 No.3673761
>>3673728Honestly I don't know. You'll have to take that up with him. I haven't been here long enough to know much about the drama that happened before I showed up.
He hasn't said anything to me about you.
I'm just piecing together what I can.
But if what he is saying about you is true (which I suspect it is) I can't say I blame him for being pissed off.
I just like his bimbo characters and rp. I've blown so many loads to Nicole and Circusfox I've lost count.
Speaking of that…. I think I might just pull up my Poly folder have myself a good ol' wank right now.
Fuck No Nut November.
ae4fda61 No.3673769
>>3673768
ah I get that, I have this ideal self that I would like to be, and I try my hardest to achieve it. I never do. It sometimes feel like these artificial constructs are better than the true me.
I always feel like I'm not really me, and I'm just being a frail reflection of my perfect self.
I feel bad giving advice that I can't adhere to, so I wont, but I'll leave you with my pitty party.
ae4fda61 No.3673772
>>3673771
surgery took a lot of that away from me, I don't feel the need to eat or go to sleep anymore, now thats all controlled by blood sugar. I wish I still had control over those aspects of my life.
ae4fda61 No.3673775
>>3673773
you need to be more definitive.
ae4fda61 No.3673782
>>3673781
>sociopath
lol, you might think that is your label, and maybe it was given to you, but sociopaths don't care about others.
You care about people, I know you do. You aren't a sociopath, you've just been hurt more than anyone should have to endure.
We're kindred spirits.
ae4fda61 No.3673785
>>3673783
you do what does good for you my bro friend.
ae4fda61 No.3673787
>>3673786
you have a unique opportunity dealing with your shadow self, I have no idea how to deal with it, that shit is on your own terms.
ae4fda61 No.3673789
i would be really interested in knowing how your shadow behaved. Like I said, mine is boring, yours sounds more interesting.
ae4fda61 No.3673791
>>3673788
I misread, I guess we are more similar than face value suggests.
ae4fda61 No.3673793
as much as alter * would love to be in control, I, like you, refuse to give it control.
ae4fda61 No.3673796
>>3673792you're a cool dude, if I was a cool enough dude I'd hug you all summer, sadly that is not a thing. I'd love to be yourr friend until the ice age ended.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2NU5nI2pBXM ae4fda61 No.3673799
well,we can always cuddlefuck with hugs,
ae4fda61 No.3673801
you aren't so bad that I don't want to liknk to to a sho.
ae4fda61 No.3673803
>>3673800
also Id like to happily get comfy in your tree house. SUch comfort, very knots
ae4fda61 No.3673805
>>3673804
lol, I could kill people with plenty of better expressions,than hatred.
ae4fda61 No.3673806
I'm just begging to have buggers infest your level of rope.
ae4fda61 No.3673808
i just dislike hanging myself with out an audience.
fca71819 No.3673814
>>3673728Oh here we go. More lies form the wolf. If all those fake updates weren't you then who the hell was it? If it wasn't you spreading the false rumor I groped an old lady then who the hell was it?
Who the hell else would it be? It has your M.o all over it. You have stated on multiple occasions that if some ones using some one else's handle here with intent of defamation the chances are it's probably you behind that post. I could be mistaken but I don't recall the rumors and fake updates happening much if at all until after you decided you hated me for being poor and a Bimbo.
>>3673732I'm not your blob of clay to manipulate. That's pretty fucked up that you would equate malleability as a sign of good mental health. Acknowledging we're not perfect and willing to accept help to change ourselvs into some one we truly want to be… yes … this is a good thing but the change has to some WE want to be, not what YOU want them to be.
Oh and I think I've changed plenty.
I used to be entirely liberal, I used to be a Christian. I didn't always know being a bimbo was what I wanted to be.
But its like now that I've accepted I don't want to be poor anymore, that I've settled on pink bimbo, that I've realized that modern liberalism is just a thinly veiled form of crypto fascism, that Christianity isn't compatible with being a pink bimbo…
All of sudden we've become l enemies? What the hell for? So that you can sit there talking about your alternate selves and your auditory hallucinations and pretend your any less insane than me?
fca71819 No.3673817
>>3673737 Aggressive stance? Oh just who the hell's idea was that?
We didn't always have this aggressive stance.
But when you offered your help and then ridiculed me for taking you up on it and then proceeded to post multiple fake Aufy updates yeah… How the hell else am I supposed to take that?
I didn't realize you always resented me for being low income and until recently I didn't realize I resented myself for the same thing.
You're always going off about ohh poor steam his family is so mean to him.
Well yeah what the hell do expect?
That holier than thou superior
attitude creates more hatred towards an individual than just about any other attitude you could possibly display.
Ya know as a Christian being poor is acceptable but as a Satanist I'd kind of like to do better for myself.
Not willing to change?
Bro I was excited, thrilled even to work with you and really work together under your guidance to improve my life and build the biggest pinkest sex Demon I could with guidance of a real engineer. I was 100% ready and willing to take you up on that and change in whatever way I could to be the best bimbo I could.
I mean was doing bimbo stuff before as kind of a mild hobby just sort of getting a feel for it to see how I like it… and you didn't seem to be bothered by it but when I got inspired to build something bigger and pinker than anything I've done before and take my work to the next level, something I would have really appreciated help with, you did a total 180 on me out of the clear blue sky.
How am I supposed to take that?
Fuck you!
Fuck you is how I take it.
ae4fda61 No.3673823
>>3673817If it gets you yo donate, I'll do it, its just hard to keep contributing to the catholic faith. I'm so tired. You always have to do the mother father and holy spirit thing, and honestly, get annoyed by all of the crossing and bullshit that comes with it;
ae4fda61 No.3673826
>>3673822
I do the whole prayer thing, but jesus does not pay the UHAUL that you need to move peoploe's shit.
22b8c537 No.3673829
>>3673823What are you talking about? They said they are a satanist
ae4fda61 No.3673830
>>3673829i was better off when I was a satanist.
ae4fda61 No.3673831
we at least took are of materialistic fuckery.
fca71819 No.3673840
>>3673816Whats it for? BONNERS! For LIFE!
For progress! That's what it's for
Ohhh our sun's going to burn out? That's why our goal as a civilization any intelligent civilization should be to become a space faring species… so that one day we can have some of that hot interstellar space sex.
Getting as many men as hard as possible generating as much sexual energy as we possibly can with the time we have is what it's for… at least for me.
Most people don't realize this because humans are inherently ashamed and afraid of their sexualilty but that energy we feel when we have a bonner… it isn't just "a fun tickle"… it's a physical force of nature.
Like gravity or light or electricity or the strong and weak nuclear force.
It is an energy force that compells matter to become life and compels that life to multiple. It's why cells divide, why samone swim up stream, its why animals breed.
And I intend to use that sexy energy to the best of my ability.
No being a bimbo is not always "easy" the fans always want more, there is a constant demand and to step up your game. The exploring fetishes we're not exactly into… but we doing things we wouldn't normally do because that's what's going to get them the hardest.
The Bimbo primes are going to help guid you either. You just have to learn to swim on your own.
Dealing with all the people flinging themselves at you, people who think your flirting with them because you're actually trying to court them rather simply being there as for them as interactive porn experience… the guilt tripes, the cutters, the absolute Reree's the keeping up with demands, the having to schedule your content drops around everyone else in the house.
and the whole time… no matter how gross or not into it you may be… going for it anyway because that's what's going to get them the most hard.
It's not always easy and it's not always rewarding either.
But sometimes it is..
But it's the life we have chosen and knowing their over there blowing massive loads our contetent makes it all worth it.
fca71819 No.3673843
>>3673833I'm from the south Dk of course I've seen gone with the wind.
22b8c537 No.3673852
>>3673840I remember having a dream like that a long long long time ago. I wanted to be an artist, and try to turn as many people as possible into degenerates with my art.
I would love finding out all about people fetishes. And I watched hundreds or thousands of furry artists and looked at what they submitted each day.
I got so desensitized to fetishes.
fca71819 No.3673854
>>3673830Wait what? You told us you worshiped the Egyptian God Set.
That is entirely different from Satanism.
You ditching Christianity isn't what bothers me. It's the fact that on board of sexual deviance you have the audacity to lecture me about my own comparatively vanilla fetishes and I even forgave you for it on the presentence of you being Christian.
If you're refusal to do the thing you said you'd do was based upon some new found acceptance of Christ and a miscommunication that I could understand.
But without that pretence I have no reason to take you off my shit list.
From where I'm sitting it appears that you have arbitrarily decided that you'd rather have me at your throat than as non hostile party. But that was your choice.
You chose to offer your help
You chose to ridicule me for taking you up on it.
You chose make defamatory posts.
You chose to be a total high horse hypocrite.
Those were your choices not mine.
bb9b839c No.3673864
>>3673863*buxzzy drone noises*
pokes you with stick
(no response)
*flies away*
fca71819 No.3673880
>>3673855God Damn 10 times?
My personal record is 9.
What an inspiration. ya know what? You're right I can do better than that.
I'm gonna shoot for 10.
ae4fda61 No.3673883
>>3673854The Temple of Set is in modern days an offshoot of the Church of Satan. Its fallen into disrepair by the attention of aging ass hats who all want it it ob something that fits their whims.
As much as I personally identify as being in line with the forces of chaos, my chosen profession doesn't really allow it. Which is kinda ironic, I'm working with individuals who are chaotic by nature, but no one wants a setanist/satanic psychologist.
I tried to deviate off the left hand path, but ultimately failed. I learned a lot about right hand religion, tanks to the RCIA, but its just not for me. I'm a being that wants to improve itself and achieve an isolated personal level of unachievable perfection. I might be inclined to help people along the way, but I'm too self centered to be a good christian boi.
ae4fda61 No.3673887
I actually tried the whole RCIA thing because I had a cardinal of the catholic church talk to me I almost changed my ways, he was slightly not awesome at his selling point though. You'd think that someone so close the the pope could have moved me, but a lass, nope.
ae4fda61 No.3673888
>>3673887cardinals, bishops, priests, they all could have made a call and the only thing I'd have to spare is a friendly word.
im a guy who is lost to all this bs.
cd0886c7 No.3673922
>>3673885Oh so now you're telling us that you were kicked out of the Temple of Set for being TOO GOOD a person.
Sure ya were. That's believable.
01861cbd No.3673925
>>3673916And you can hurt your back. And feel awful because your hormones/brain receptors get all screwy for a while.
And sometimes you'd rather have that energy for stuff rather than have spent it getting off.
I've heard stories before of female sex addicts that can go 15-20+ times.
And I've seen a video of a girl before trying to break the world record for most times cummed inside by different guys or something.
1f77995c No.3673966
>>3673320>accept that Republicans will steal the money you earned by paying taxes as part of every paycheck you earned. That's what you are really saying.
"Entitlements" like social security is paid for. You have to work to earn it.
Republicans are stealing the money we all earned to give it to their rich donors who will in turn feed some of it back to those same Republicans.
They are stealing from us all.
You just want us to roll over and take it?
1f77995c No.3673969
>>3673855If you have time to jerk off every day, you are doing life wrong. Work harder at creating a legacy and less at slacking, loser.
c2f82ebc No.3673980
>>3673969Yes, subvert all sexual energy into creating value while you slave away for someone else's profits.
Do you think wealthy successful people don't take breaks? Do you think they don't spend massive amounts of time screwing, doing drugs and getting drunk? What do you think they're doing with all of the spare time they get when they figure out how to make money off of other people working?
Be a slave forever, self-indulgence isn't for you. Keep being just a finite amount of manpower-value getting slowly burned up.
c2f82ebc No.3673981
>>3673940I read someone's treatise on tantric sex years ago, it basically boiled down to actually thinking about what you were doing, envisioning yourself actually cumming, in order to gain control over the 'energy' or whatever and prolong it indefinitely.
The effect pretty much flipped me from always cumming too soon to having massive amounts of trouble reaching orgasm.
ae4fda61 No.3674050
>>3674046people keep saying that I should be dead by now. Im still kicking. I should have been dead by 26, but im still punching life in the face at 32.
go figure. My hatred is stronk.
ae4fda61 No.3674069
>>3674066
lol back in high school I had a gym teacher like that. She had to use her podium to walk.
she was so obese that it was practically hilarious just to watch her try to move around.
ae4fda61 No.3674077
to an extent that is true, unless you count in all the stuff that you memorized from them when they were alive, in which case they still live on to an extent.
ae4fda61 No.3674085
being poor is not a crime. A lot of people feel like it is, but Im not one of them. I want to help the poor not criminalize them.
I put my money were my mouth is and try to us my fortune to help those in need, not hurt them.
I didn't always understand things the way that I do now.
ae4fda61 No.3674088
>>3674086
I strongly dislike beggars. There is a difference between the poor and beggar vagrants.
ae4fda61 No.3674092
>>3674090There are occasions where people on welfare will treat themselves to something nice.
I find it despicable that people are so against the idea of the poor on welfare having the occasional good time that they start treating the impoverished like they were animals.
ae4fda61 No.3674097
>>3674093
well there are occasions where things don't exactly add up. like I work on weekends at a food pantry, occasionally you get an asshat who demands that we give them ground beef when we only have donations of almost expired cans of soup from big lots to give.
Its shocking that we even have a steady supply of pet food to give out.
Some people need a solid slap to the head, others are just not capable of grasping the reality of their situation.
ae4fda61 No.3674102
>>3674101
trigem.
ae4fda61 No.3674125
>>3674123he can't hold a candle to me when it comes to my sheer level of doing everything ok.
He might be a master of a trade, but im a jack of all. He doesn't have a house, and spends all his money renting, and I built mine.
Its a lesser accomplishment, but I can still rub his face in it He's still getting over breaking up with my sloppy seconds.
ae4fda61 No.3674129
yeah i lost my guy friends during the Trump election. I thought I was going to lose hardcore, and was braced for it.
Sadly I won, and all my friends left be because of it.
ae4fda61 No.3674192
>>3674187Seriously, if I'm going to not have the capability to grow proper facial hair thanks to my native american heritage, I should at least get a thunder bird familiar or something to make up for it.
Instead I get stuck with splotchy facial hair and a dog that steals my spot in bed, and barks at nothing, and then thinks hes entitled to scratches for his antisocial borking. I'd prefer a thunder bird, instead I get 145 lbs of Cain.
ae4fda61 No.3674216
>>3674214
you're more aware of situations like I'm in than most "smart" people. I applaud you.
Everyone wants to be intelligent, but it always seems to come with a cost.
ae4fda61 No.3674219
>>3674216Like, I can type as fast as a demon, and I can entire text books in a sitting. I can write research papers that are supposed to take days in minutes.
Unfortunately, that makes it so that if I'm having a direct conversation with someone, everything they say just comes off as boring and irreverent. Then people start talking about their problems, and the solutions, at least to me, seem entirely self evident.
A lot of conversations I have with people are so boring. Its like most people can't even comprehend their own situations.
ae4fda61 No.3674223
>>3674222
I vaguely remember that show, if I remember right it was on a block labeled as "crime inc"
ae4fda61 No.3674229
>>3674227dont worry, its not like you shared anything incriminating, I just know how your brain works now. You don't have to worry about me fucking with you.
>>3674228I'd rather live in the moment then constantly putting things off for some unattainable future date. I might be a little impulsive, but thats why I'm able to get so much done.
ae4fda61 No.3674252
>>3674251
I'm diagnosed with PTSD, you're crying to the choir here.
ae4fda61 No.3674253
>>3674252I have 100% disability, and the military does not do that unless you're wall licking crazy or got blasted to hell.
2ea55a34 No.3674259
>>3674252Anyways, so what have you learned from your ptsd?
ae4fda61 No.3674266
>>3674256
Lulz is limiting my posting, I'm not ignoring you, Dan is just being a dick.
ae4fda61 No.3674269
>>3674268well yeah, it usually falls on me to rile people up enough to have decent engaging threads, the /pol/ thread excluded.
I need to limit my responses, because Dan., bu I think we need to conclude this conversation. Not because I want to, but the mods are being jerks, and I don't have enough pull to drudge this stuff along.
1546be6f No.3674289
>>3674288that's it pretty much. Steam abuses everyone who has shown kindness to him. We just talk to him because there's nothing else to do. It's like chatting with a retarded kid with no self awareness whatsoever
ae4fda61 No.3674307
Good luck with that.
>>3674306*snarky remark*
2ea55a34 No.3674308
Early on into my relationship with my friend what attracted him to me. Was my mean-ness and all of that.
My friend was used to people mistreating him.
And I became less and less mean.
ae4fda61 No.3674315
>>3674310some people like
>>3674289 seem to think I'm kinda bad myself. I'm like you, deeply misunderstood.
e475b345 No.3674360
>>3673102File: 1667552179580.gif (140.73 KB, 400x225, Reading.gif)
Funny, all his posts that were here vanished
Anonymous 11/04/22 (Fri) 13:55:59 11ea202c No.3673102>>3673149
>>3673098That's Steam's modis operandi. He drunkposts then sometimes deletes them when he sobers up.
Steam 11/04/22 (Fri) 16:22:46 ae4fda61 No.3673110>>3673114>>3673316
File: 1667578966511.png (565.22 KB, 1200x704, imbusy.png)
When I'm drunk I go on long winded rants with details that are completely irrelevant.
Long story short, I've been busy with college, applying for internships, and applying to work as a tutor/staff guy for summer learning camps. Yesterday was the first time in over a week that I've drank, and I rarely post here when I'm sober.
e475b345 No.3674362
isdom to dispense.
Steam 11/08/22 (Tue) 22:37:36 ae4fda61 No.3674284
File: 1667947056349.jpg (7.18 KB, 199x253, flower.jpg)
Im not even giving life changing advice, its mainly just "dont be a shit waffle" some people just can't wrap their heads around the concept.
Steam 11/08/22 (Tue) 22:46:27 ae4fda61 No.3674286>>3674287
File: 1667947587968.jpg (269.68 KB, 678x1280, 1593914006.hun_447_chunie_….jpg)
well DK is an exception. Most of you just need a judge in the right direction and don't warrant the attention that I give DK. He's a special case.
Steam 11/08/22 (Tue) 22:47:43 ae4fda61 No.3674287>>3674288
File: 1667947663472.jpg (430.37 KB, 886x1280, 1590863896.hun_437_chunie_….jpg)
>>3674286 DK is my special boi.
863ff89d No.3674388
I'm sure the TOR archive caught all that fyi
Not sure about archive.ph I thought that wasn't automatic
ae4fda61 No.3674406
>>3674388I don't know why you're being all butthurt about a few deleted posts. I mostly just remove things to correct grammatical errors, formatting or occasionally accidentally hit submit with the wrong image or something.
I'll usually repost an improved version a few seconds later. Its not like you're missing out on anything.
ae4fda61 No.3674408
>>3674332I'm still not entirely shure how I got the reputation of being a liar. I rarely ever straight up lie, I might omit some parts of the truth or fancy up factual statements for some dramatic flare, but its like once in a blue moon that I'll actually just fabricate some nonsense.
Speaking of nonsense, I didn't get the sleep I wanted. I live next a nursing home and I guess someone died or something. Sirens blazing and lights flashing just outside my bedroom window. Then my stupid dog decided he was going to bark at it, then he found his squeeky ball and despite all my efforts to stay asleep he just stood on my chest "squeek, squeek, squeek" right in my ear for like 10 minutes. Now I'm just awake enough to shit post and play video games.
e475b345 No.3674410
>>3674408it's because of straight up lies like this:
>I'm still not entirely shure how I got the reputation of being a liar. I rarely ever straight up lie ae4fda61 No.3674412
>>3674410in my memory, no one has ever been able to cite an actual lie I've told.
The closest thing was a hand full of times where I was misinformed about something. I don't count honest mistakes as lies.
e475b345 No.3674414
>>3674413no one believes you
cope
e475b345 No.3674416
>>3674415
no
e475b345 No.3674423
Shame you hate yourself so much. No wish to improve at all
ae4fda61 No.3674425
>>3674416You know I don't always have a super intrecret story to tell.
Like right now the most interesting thing in my life is that I have a pimple just on the back crease of my left ear, and it refuses to die.
I'm not actually a constant artisan wellspring of interesting stories.
e475b345 No.3674426
This “terrorist” BS is why I voted left wing for as long as I did. 20 years ago, the neocons tried to pull this whole “you’re not a Patriot if you don’t support the Patriot Act” nonsense. Us moderates/anti-establishment types tried to warn people of how the Patriot Act would be used against US citizens and right wing NPCs would say “you just have to follow the law… you have nothing to hide if you’re a good person.”
And now here we are. I’m so annoyed that the right wing NPCs supported this nonsense and now we all have to pay for it. And only NOW they’re realizing how bad the FBI and CIA are. /facepalm. It really just makes you want to scream out of frustration.
And they want to paint people who were left wing as the NPCs when they were all used by the government to take away our Constitutional rights. Each side is happy as long as big government pushes their agenda.
Only a few years ago, right wingers considered Edward Snowden a traitor for leaking that the government was doing this! They just really had way too much trust in daddy government. I find it ironic that they now ridicule the left for being pro big government when they were like this only a few years ago prior to the Trump admin.
The silver lining in this is that finally more people are waking up. Stupidly, the left are becoming pro-establishment right when we need them to not be. Ugh…
Send help. We are surrounded by NPCs everywhere.
ae4fda61 No.3674427
>>3674423Bitch my life is constant improvement. Not always effective improvement, but improvement none the less.
Still true I'm physically a shadow of what I used to be, time has not granted me any favors. Mentally I'm a little better off, but damn if I don't miss the days that I could do a push up a second and run a marathon.
e475b345 No.3674431
>>3674427nvm not going to try to talk to y ou again
ae4fda61 No.3674433
>>3674431lol now you're the one who looks like they're drunk posting.
I guess compared to other people who are as old as I am, I'm not too bad off. I work out on my elliptical machine every day, so my cardio isn't all that bad, and I can still bench my body weight. Which at 230 lbs isn't all that bad.
I've got degrees and certificates for days, and my own personal library. I could be worse off. I'm still not happy with myself, but it could be worse. I definitely couldn't be the femboy that furries so aspire to be, but I can at least rock a DILF bod.
e475b345 No.3674435
>>3674433ur just talking to urself. i literally dont give a shit about anything you say
e475b345 No.3674436
i never drink either
>>3674433 ae4fda61 No.3674443
>>3674441
I laugh at him for the support check thing he has to do. He's paying alimony to two women he was never even married to, and child support for 3 kids that aren't even biologically his.
Such a cuck.
e475b345 No.3674444
Its actually pretty annoying how much people irl get on me for the alcohol thing, like my brother. He was bitching at me for it, and I'm like "my dude" I have a house, all the bullshit that goes with owning a house, a few acres of land I don' do anything with,several degrees, I own more vehicles than I know what to do with, and almost infinite money.
He rents, has no savings, two alimony checks per month, and even though he has an electrical engineering degree, he works tech support from home. Plus he smokes weed all the time.
I choose to be an alcoholic, I choose to keep buying the bottles, but my alcoholism should not cancel out all my positive aspects.
I'm the most successful person I know, and I'm surrounded by failures, but no, that one aspect of my being just seems to eclipse everything I've accomplished.Its actually pretty annoying how much people irl get on me for the alcohol thing, like my brother. He was bitching at me for it, and I'm like "my dude" I have a house, all the bullshit that goes with owning a house, a few acres of land I don' do anything with,several degrees, I own more vehicles than I know what to do with, and almost infinite money.
He rents, has no savings, two alimony checks per month, and even though he has an electrical engineering degree, he works tech support from home.
I choose to be an alcoholic, I choose to keep buying the bottles, but my alcoholism should not cancel out all my positive aspects.
I'm the most successful person I know, and I'm surrounded by failures, but no, that one aspect of my being just seems to eclipse everything I've accomplished.
ae4fda61 No.3674446
Its actually pretty annoying how much people irl get on me for the alcohol thing, like my brother. He was bitching at me for it, and I'm like "my dude" I have a house, all the bullshit that goes with owning a house, a few acres of land I don' do anything with,several degrees, I own more vehicles than I know what to do with, and almost infinite money.
He rents, has no savings, two alimony checks per month, and even though he has an electrical engineering degree, he works tech support from home. Plus he smokes weed all the time.
I choose to be an alcoholic, I choose to keep buying the bottles, but my alcoholism should not cancel out all my positive aspects.
I'm the most successful person I know, and I'm surrounded by failures, but no, that one aspect of my being just seems to eclipse everything I've accomplished.Its actually pretty annoying how much people irl get on me for the alcohol thing, like my brother. He was bitching at me for it, and I'm like "my dude" I have a house, all the bullshit that goes with owning a house, a few acres of land I don' do anything with,several degrees, I own more vehicles than I know what to do with, and almost infinite money.
He rents, has no savings, two alimony checks per month, and even though he has an electrical engineering degree, he works tech support from home.
I choose to be an alcoholic, I choose to keep buying the bottles, but my alcoholism should not cancel out all my positive aspects.
I'm the most successful person I know, and I'm surrounded by failures, but no, that one aspect of my being just seems to eclipse everything I've accomplished.
e475b345 No.3674466
Steam 11/09/22 (Wed) 08:55:47 ae4fda61 No.3674446
Its actually pretty annoying how much people irl get on me for the alcohol thing, like my brother. He was bitching at me for it, and I'm like "my dude" I have a house, all the bullshit that goes with owning a house, a few acres of land I don' do anything with,several degrees, I own more vehicles than I know what to do with, and almost infinite money.
He rents, has no savings, two alimony checks per month, and even though he has an electrical engineering degree, he works tech support from home. Plus he smokes weed all the time.
I choose to be an alcoholic, I choose to keep buying the bottles, but my alcoholism should not cancel out all my positive aspects.
I'm the most successful person I know, and I'm surrounded by failures, but no, that one aspect of my being just seems to eclipse everything I've accomplished.Its actually pretty annoying how much people irl get on me for the alcohol thing, like my brother. He was bitching at me for it, and I'm like "my dude" I have a house, all the bullshit that goes with owning a house, a few acres of land I don' do anything with,several degrees, I own more vehicles than I know what to do with, and almost infinite money.
He rents, has no savings, two alimony checks per month, and even though he has an electrical engineering degree, he works tech support from home.
I choose to be an alcoholic, I choose to keep buying the bottles, but my alcoholism should not cancel out all my positive aspects.
I'm the most successful person I know, and I'm surrounded by failures, but no, that one aspect of my being just seems to eclipse everything I've accomplished.
32da66a7 No.3674563
>>3674473It's not like a repressed memory, because you didn't make one in the first place. No short-term to long-term memory transition takes place.
5cd19bb8 No.3674565
>>3674563What do you mean?
I'm saying like… Say you got abused as a kid. So you drink to forget. And now you can't remember, but your still angry and got the emotional issues
4dd67aea No.3674580
>>3674565Alcohol blackouts interfere with the brain's ability to imprint memories. You make an absolute, gross fool of yourself but can't remember what happened.
Other people end up knowing more about your shame than you do. An absolute social nightmare…
e475b345 No.3674591
Its actually pretty annoying how much people irl get on me for the alcohol thing, like my brother. He was bitching at me for it, and I'm like "my dude" I have a house, all the bullshit that goes with owning a house, a few acres of land I don' do anything with,several degrees, I own more vehicles than I know what to do with, and almost infinite money.
He rents, has no savings, two alimony checks per month, and even though he has an electrical engineering degree, he works tech support from home. Plus he smokes weed all the time.
I choose to be an alcoholic, I choose to keep buying the bottles, but my alcoholism should not cancel out all my positive aspects.
I'm the most successful person I know, and I'm surrounded by failures, but no, that one aspect of my being just seems to eclipse everything I've accomplished.
1b0c1bd2 No.3674621
>>3674413Let it go? You're talking about it right now!
Let it go? I stop posting for here for like a week and you're on here making up complete and total bullshit under my handles. I can't let go? You're the who keeps fucking with me.
I wasn't asking you to "build it for me" that's bulshit. You offered your assistance. I took you up on it and you called me freak.
Fuck off!
Then you we're all "Oh no I meant providing financial advice, not engineering advice. I'm not helping you build the one thing I knew you'd ask me to help you with"
Then when I explained to you.
"Huhhh steam that's great and all but any financial advice or any help what's so ever is going to go to benefiting this project" you were all "well then I'm not helping you at all"
It's like as soon as I decided what I wanted to do with my life, as soon as I decided I was no longer content being a low income sack of crap and was ready commit to something…
You just arbitrarily decide that you're gonna start fuck'n with me.
Do I have pull up the screen shots? Is your memory that shots or did you delete that to?
What about the alone-on-a-Friday-night thread? Where you going off about how
"I sUggEst wE tHiS diReCtiOn bUt CraZy AuFy WanTeD spEnd oN tHat."
I can't let go? YOU CAN'T LET IT GO.
I try ignoring you and then you just keep goading me on. Like with this post here.
e475b345 No.3674683
>>3674621you just have to accept you're the only one stupid enough to talk to steam and trust his bullshit, and all of the dehumanizing that comes with that. You are worth less than dirt
3e7dde7a No.3674748
Aufy is fucked in the head.
2b46bc31 No.3674862
>>3674623>>3674627You got taken in by a sociopath, dummy. Happens to all sorts of mentally ill people, because you're easy to take advantage of. You're just especially stupid because Steam isn't very good at hiding the fact he is one and it becomes blatant pretty quickly if you pay attention to anything he does.
ad62dd99 No.3674871
>>3674862He can talk a whole day about caring, empathy, innocence in the other thread. And not take one step in here since poly came back
Its funny even.
e475b345 No.3674874
>>3674871yeah the guy is basically evil. He had a really nice bf too, shame he had to screw it up by threatening to kill him all the time
e475b345 No.3674877
>>3674875The guy told me all about it personally and he used to be our premiere image dumper
ad62dd99 No.3674878
>>3674877I guess steam's got one on me there. I've never met anyone from the internet before. Much less got a boyfriend irl out of it.
What happened to the guy? Did he need to see anyone after that for mental help?
e475b345 No.3674879
>>3674878The guy was super optimistic and friendly so I think he just moved on. Even with Steam messing with him and cucking him one day, lol
e475b345 No.3674880
Its actually pretty annoying how much people irl get on me for the alcohol thing, like my brother. He was bitching at me for it, and I'm like "my dude" I have a house, all the bullshit that goes with owning a house, a few acres of land I don' do anything with,several degrees, I own more vehicles than I know what to do with, and almost infinite money.
He rents, has no savings, two alimony checks per month, and even though he has an electrical engineering degree, he works tech support from home. Plus he smokes weed all the time.
I choose to be an alcoholic, I choose to keep buying the bottles, but my alcoholism should not cancel out all my positive aspects.
I'm the most successful person I know, and I'm surrounded by failures, but no, that one aspect of my being just seems to eclipse everything I've accomplished.
8d40f974 No.3674883
>>3674879Its hard to be super optimistic in todays world.
You can try, but then you fail, and fail, and fail.
And then you can get a reputation as a flip-flop. Where people say that your being happy is an act and is all fake and that your really ultra depressed.
649b6151 No.3674907
>>3674748It's not so much the head as much as it is the heart.
>>3674862 It's a minor annoyance. But I figured it was worth a shot.
>>3674874 I don't know about evil. I think maybe he's just immature. Probably sees us as an easy target to project his insecurities. It's possible he could be just be envious of MrJ, I dunno.
At least a valuable lesson came of it. Only one's gonna change me to the bimbo I know I can be is me. Mr.J's gonna respect me more of I can improve myself on my own rather than being guided by a narrasistic mentor.
>>3674883 Who isn't put'n on a face? Sometimes the best cure for depression
ain't trying to make it obvious and talking about it all the time, expecting other people to give ya the validation you think you want. Every one loves validation but we can't rely on it.
It's not so much bottling it up as much as it is trying to keep it ourselves but honor those feelings explore on our own time why we feel the way do, how we'd rather feel and try to take the nessecary steps to move from where we are to where we want to be emotionally or otherwise.
Some times it's just pretending you're happy until ya actually are. Ya know sometimes we can't expect any one else to pull us out of our own funk but our own God Damn selves. We gotta find a light source, some reason to move forward and keep going.
Harley's so in love MrJ no matter what.
She had to accept and honor that. So rather than denying her love, she decided that she's gonna follow in thier foot steps and hope that some day they'll be proud of her. Even if MrJ never accepts Harley she's got a path to follow now. Harley accepts Harley and she's gonna move forward no matter what.
e475b345 No.3674913
>>3674907>I don't know about evil. I think maybe he's just immature.retard
a028e795 No.3674922
>>3674907Are you for real on the jay thing? Idk you long enough to know if its a joke or for real.
649b6151 No.3674926
>>3674913Well… maybe he is maybe he I ain't, I dunno, I dun care. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. I wish'em the best on his "journey to better his person" really I do.
But he can drop dead for all I care.
ae4fda61 No.3674930
>>3674926Im chaotic neutral at worst.
Also I am doing awesome in my classes, I'm rocking a 99.8% average grade. Still its not like I have much more than internship experience and that isn't any more than taking notes, don't take my comments to heart.
a028e795 No.3674931
I'm not saying I can't be optimistic, but I can dial it up much higher than lulz has seen.
And thats the one that usually makes people go wtf. And call me a faker if I return to normal/crash.
ae4fda61 No.3674934
>>3674933still nothing like you used to be. I tried to get you to commit suicide and then you disappeared for like years. I used to be able to barely flick you and you'd go off the roof, glad you didn't kill yourself, you came back and turned out entertaining.
I'm sure all the other posters appreciate you distracting me as well.
b8dfbcc9 No.3674938
>>3674907Ohhhhh God.
Careful Aufy.
Dial it back.
>>3674907 No he's huhhhh not exactly joking and he's not exactly talking about the Joker either.
Uhm yeah, it's just best to not read to much into these things.
ae4fda61 No.3674939
>>3674935>>3674937well despite that I took credit for a long time for your suicide. It was kind of surprising when you randomly showed up and started posting again, we honestly needed some old blood back in there.
So not disappointed at all, people only took your disappearance with Fancy and Unell's the same way anyways.
ae4fda61 No.3674942
>>3674938Hes not entirely untruthful in some of the threatening things I said. He asked me to be scary so I was, but I never actually was physical with Unell. He just wanted me to be scary, we had a simple safe word he just never said it so I guess I actually scared him. We reinforced the safe word every time though.
a028e795 No.3674943
>>3674938I'm sure its fine. I've seen and heard so much messed up stuff. Almost nothing shocks me.
Who is MrJay? A suit? A pet? Their father?
ae4fda61 No.3674945
>>3674942I wasn't a dunk back en either, Unell just like it, and 99% of the time, I was the one in bondage. He's the one who got me into chastity and convinced me to get my dick pierced.
ae4fda61 No.3674947
>>3674945i even got a stud put into my tongue for him, not nearly as painful as its made out to be, but I couldn't stop messing with it and I managed to break it loose
Really quick healing, i can still feel the knot where I was pierced if i drag my teeth over my tongue. I only had it in for like 3 days.
a028e795 No.3674948
>>3674947You know what they say. "If he has a pierced tongue he'll probably suck your dick" -chris rock
ae4fda61 No.3674950
A lot faster than the prince Albert, that thing stung like a bitch when I tried to piss and i had to have a glove tied to my dick just to prevent the blood from being obvious. The ladders were way easier than the PA.
ae4fda61 No.3674953
I can feel all my subdermals still there, they aren't still open like my PA, I even had my nipple pierced, lucky I never did something really stupid like getting heavy gauged. Really if anyone should be complaining about pain it should be me. I have a phobia of needles, so I needed him there to hold my hand for every one.
ae4fda61 No.3674954
>>3674953I can brace myself fine for one. I had a 6 rung ladder put in under the PA. Since removed with no issue or open holes, but fuck me. getting those were intense.
ae4fda61 No.3674956
>>3674955
fucking hell, how am I still awake?
4444d835 No.3686134
Stesm, you are a Lulz version of Baron Munchausen!!
For those who don't know who that is:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Baron_Munchausen 46483541 No.3686148
>>3686134How so? I've never been caught in a lie as far as I know.
The whole "Steam the liar" thing has always been weird, since no one has ever given an example of me lying.
46483541 No.3686149
>>3686148I mean I've been here for over a decade, at this point at least one screenshot of me telling a solid lie would have shown up by now.
My "lies" are more of a meme at this point than a true history of fabrication.
4829c40e No.3686210
>>3686148>The whole "Steam the liar" thing has always been weird, since no one has ever given an example of me lying.So claims
SteamTheCompulsiveLiar.🚾
7102e8a0 No.3686580
>>3686438Fact check: Steam has never had sex and has never met a gay person.
46ee167d No.3686598
>>3686580Fact check: Unell, in the least. We were super romantic, a Lulz power couple went on lots of gay adventures together, until I tried lobotomize him.
Then I fucked his fantasy romance Fancy_Tux in front of him and sent him back to canada in a taxi.
Like I do.
8d72d2f6 No.3686608
>>3672649What is that hideous, ugly thing?
Is this a Halloween thread?
Somebody can't draw.
8d72d2f6 No.3686611
>>3686601"The fictional Baron's exploits, narrated in the first person, focus on his impossible achievements as a sportsman, soldier, and traveller; for instance: riding on a cannonball, fighting a forty-foot crocodile, and travelling to the Moon."
WHAT'S NOT TO BELIEVE??
62f1557b No.3686681
>>3686628
It's not one big lie, it's a lot of little things.
For instance, you could not have lived the ten lifetimes it would require to have done and experienced all the things that you claim, it's impossible. There would not be enough time.
Secondly, if anyone had underwent all the injuries and surgeries you claim to have suffered, they would be a bedridden invalid for life, AT BEST. It's simply not possible.
And so on.
Don't take this the wrong way, it's a lot better than the bullshit 3B posts, his posts only being great for comedy, because nobody on here ever believes anything he says and it's marvelous watching him waste his life accomplishing nothing.
You on the other hand, at least are sort of interesting.
So go ahead, embrace your inner Munchausen.
Do him better even, ride TWO cannonballs.
It's ok.
8b5ec7d6 No.3686714
>>3686681that or the metaphor of the candle that shines twice as bright or whatever, kills itslef out twice as fast. Thus why I do nothing now. I am broken by disappointment.
I've shown physical evidence of all the surgeries and shit I've had trying to do literally everything. I pushed myself too hard and got hurt, a lot.
I've stretched some truths, but I've just lived a very colorful life. I'm paying for it now and just sort of resting on a nest egg built of weirdness.
7d1c9446 No.3700276
wtf happened to Steam? He hasn't been online in over a month
df226d9a No.3700307
>>3700302If he was as rich as he said he was he could have just hired a good lawyer to find some excuse to get his charges completely dismissed.
937f1c35 No.3700311
>>3700307It seemed like he squirmed out of getting popped for drunk driving (if that was even real. Who knows). The thing with drunk driving is that a significant amount of people don't learn their lesson the first time. So maybe he's actually dead or in prison. Hopefully he didn't kill anyone while driving drunk.
df226d9a No.3700327
>>3700311All that AA rehab and it didn't work for him. That goes to show that even Aufy and Cobalt have stronger convictions than Steam has.
18937b63 No.3700363
Theres no way hed be gone this long without making a big deal out of it or showing up on the discord at least once. If he was in jail he'd have posted bail by now hes either dead or in an asylum.
df226d9a No.3700364
>>3700363It could be something completely different. Something could have came up regarding his family and he had to take care of their estate and funeral arrangements.
