That is the conclusion that i have to make. I'm about to turn 40 and if something isn't suddenly going to change my life, it's not going to get any better. I've had chronic fatigue syndrome and depression for about 20 years, but it's really gotten bad in the last few years, and while even those things were usually intermittent, now they seem not to be.38 posts and 25 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.
My skin is crumbling, i have an increasing amount of food intolerances which leave me with almost nothing left that i'm able to eat, which also has a direct effect of my physical and mental state, and i've lost most of the strength and much flexibility of my hands, leaving me unable to play any musical instruments or do anything that requires fine motorics or stamina.
I'm increasingly convinced that my life circumstances are the reason for much of my health problems, and if something miraculous doesn't happen to my life real soon, i might eventually die from sheer misery, or end up with some ailment that cripples me for the rest of my life.
I know that every time there is something that looks promising, not even necessarily for me, but the way the world is going, it actually makes me physically better, to the point that many of my ailments are almost gone temporarily, then as it turns out to be nothing, it's back again.
There's really no clear ideas that are relevant to me. I have been trying everything there is, over and over and it's never led to anything. I have still never met one single furry in real life, nor do i even know of many in my country - they all seem to be rich hipster fursuiters with no concern for the overall community, and absolutely nothing in common with me. And i don't really have many close friends online in the rest of the world either, anymore, much because of the ways Internet culture and furry culture has changed from the days of forums, personal websites, IRC and desktop messengers.
With my other interests, it's equally hopeless - there simply isn't anybody here who cares about the things that i do, nor are there enough people online for it to be of any use. I don't think i can really relate to people who aren't furries, they have no idea about the issues, so what is there to do?
Aufy is going to do sexual favors on cam to earn enough money to go all out and transform his real self into a duplicate of his bimbo personification. Look forward to watching it appear on a future episode of Botched!
From what I understood from our conversation, Aufy wanted to do kinda the reverse of what most trans do. He wanted to do the bottom surgery and THEN work on his tits and face.
With any luck he wont fuck it up too bad, and can be a kind of butchered Buck Angel before he goes too far.
I'm not the most dominating guy out there, but I look like I could be. Still Its freaky at how FTM transsexuals tend to be total sociopaths, its like they have the opposite view of Aufy. They tend to for some reason see masculinity as just wanting to straight up Saw style mutilate everyone they see and run them over with cars.
All the FTM's I've known have been straight up scary.
It's because those are the fetishistic caricatures of feminine/masculine that they masturbate to
It's a fetish+mental illness